It’s been a long week, since that fateful day, The pain not any less, the memories crowding in. The pitter patter of your feet,we still hear, find your golden strands clinging, to every surface in the room. The swish of your tail, we feel like a tremble, our ears we strain to hear that woof, and wait for you to walk through the door. But your empty collar and the empty bowls, remind us you will never return .
Looking back, you were aware, that the end was at hand . You said your goodbyes, but we, failed to recognise the signs. Friday night, you just lay down, submitting to the Will of the Universe. Your systems shutting, one by one, and you just wanted the comfort of our presence .
We your family, the rationals, refused to accept such an abrupt end. Carrying you from one hospice to the next, sure we could avert the worst, but in vain. At best, we just prolonged your agony and took away from our last moments together . If only we could rewind time, and do things differently.
In hindsight, we fell far short. Too selfish and obtuse, to understand ,your selfless love and life. In retrospect, we reflect with a heavy heart, on the many occasions we were too busy, putting your needs, second to ours. But that didn’t in anyway, make a difference to your faithful devotion. For you darling Max, came into our lives, to teach us about love, loyalty, humility and your spirit will always remain with us .
How much longer, how much more suffering, before we learn the simple truths ? That life is a fragile gift and each moment is precious. Not to be careless, especially with those who love us the most. Not to procrastinate, or leave undone that which needs to be done. And when will regret and remorse, stop being our companions ?
Mary Jacob 
Mary, your love for Max comes shining through. Also trying your best to get him treated was your love with lots of hope. I am sure he never felt bad that you at times didn’t put him first.
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That is reassuring Savi dear . Thank you.
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Dear Mary,
You have so subtly accessed the deepest recesses of my heart … wherein lay the most precious memories and feelings. The ones which we lived through too, as you all did with Darling Max.
Yes , i am sure we always fell short of unconditional love and care … but believe me , Max is happiest in His Doggy Heaven.
Where , he knows not physical pain nor separation, from his most loving family who will always be His.
God bless you all and Dear Max always ❤️🌷
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Thank you so much, dear Meenakshi. It will take time and we must mourn. It is only by going through the grief, that we can finally heal .
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