Was I Worth It Lord ?

Was I worth it Lord , when you stood before the Pharisees on trial, when you were accused of blasphemy, when you were reviled and rejected, when you were cast before sinners, to be judged, though you were without sin, without blemish ?

Was I worth it Lord, when you were mocked and ridiculed, when you were lashed with a leather thong, that left bleeding welts, when you were adorned with a crown of thorns, clothed in a purple robe, to be paraded before a jeering crowd and sneered at by the rabble, as they called you the King of Jews, in derision?

Was I worth it Lord , when you staggered under the weight of the cross , weighed down by my sin, walking alone, the lonely road to Calvary, with no friend in sight ,for those you came to save, turned your enemies? Was I worth it Lord, when with no hope of reprieve, you walked to be crucified, to die a painful, undeserving death, to take on the wrath of God, to spare me and mankind ?

Was I worth it Lord, when you hung on the cross, a punishment most vile, a death so base that was accorded to you, to cleanse me of my sin ? Was I worth it Lord , when they drove nails, into your hands and feet, pierced you in the side and left you to bleed ? Was I worth it Lord, when you were forsaken by your Father, when you were repugnant to Him for that moment, when you bore my sin ?

Was I worth it Lord, when you poured out your unconditional love, as you gave up your Spirit, gave up your life, to save me, to cleanse me, to make me spotless and white. I wonder my Lord, was I really worth all the pain and suffering, for I still sin in my heart, every moment of my life, maybe knowingly or unknowingly ? Am I deserving Lord, of your unending grace and forgiveness ?

On this Good Friday, as I remember, the fall you took for me, for my transgressions, I tremble with fear, weep tears of regret and remorse. Like the repentant thief, I pray you have mercy on me, erase my iniquities, and make me worthy. By your priceless sacrifice my Lord, make me anew, envelop me with your grace, and let sin no longer have a grip over me . By your salvation, grant me entry to paradise , to a life in eternity, with you .