The winds of change waft around us permeating our lives and homes, moving stealthily, bringing constant change, sometimes noticeable, sometimes inconspicuous , sometimes taking us quite by surprise, but always stealing our familiarity, bringing about unfamiliarity, and uncertainty. At times a welcome change at times a hurdle to face, but a new way of life it brings, certainly.
Each day we wake up not knowing what is in store for us. Be it a warm sunny day or a blustery rainy day , will it be a day filled with warmth, love and laughter or filled with anxiety, worry and disappointment ? Yesterday is gone and with it all it’s joy and sadness, tomorrow may or may not come, but we still hope ardently, for all good things, and dream of better times ahead .
Every moment leaves , closing doors that never can be opened again, moments that cannot be revisited, to alter to correct or reshape. We leave behind our past, propelled forward through changing times, and walk into the unknown with concern and eagerness. The battles of yesterday, may be the same today, but the means and skills we adopt to overcome, will be the difference, the change.
Our family is the same, our home is the same, our circumstances are the same, and yet we are filled with renewed hope, at new beginnings. At the end of each year, after the unceasing celebrations, we hang up our dancing shoes and welcome the dawn of another new year. With poignant sadness, we reflect on our past and greet the new year with mixed feelings of joy and apprehension .
We cherish the history of our past and romanticise the bygone days, erasing the memories of hardships faced. We look forward to the mystery of the future with concern and anticipation. Notwithstanding the passing of time, the unpredictability of what lies ahead, we make new goals with lofty expectations, and ambitious plans with unreserved hope for a future that may not be ours .
One moment to the next we live as creatures of habit, chasing our dreams, our jumbled lives, at the hands of a fickle fate that most often than not, thwarts our well laid plans, and allows not our goals to be achieved. Inspite of our failures, inspite of the steadily flowing time, we live with renewed hope at the dawn of each new day which we know will end, quickly, bringing to a close another day .
Each moment that goes by, leaves behind an emptiness, a vacuum that is quickly filled with the next . Maybe a treasured moment, maybe a moment of despair, but even in our darkest hour we can be sure of its passing quickly , making way for new moments of light and peace. Everyday that goes by, we learn nothing is permanent or here to stay , and we draw closer to the end, with each new season.
So we tend to live, in constant changing times, one moment to the next, through joys and sorrows,through ups and downs, until our time here ends. We are here a while and then gone, leaving behind an emptiness till it is filled, thoughts of us fading , and we remain just a wrinkle in the memory of those living on, an insignificant grain in the sands of time.
Mary Jacob 